It's not often that you find within yourself a hint of that which you are fighting so strongly against. When you do, it causes you to shudder, to cue a splatter-flick scream, to grab a razor blade and cut the tell-tale heart from your body...or it simply causes you to chuckle that you aren't perfect, but are learning. The latter happened to me this weekend as I attended a party thrown by some friends from church. I was playing ball with their son, going out on paddle boats, eating, etc., when suddenly someone yells 'there's gonna be a baptism!' Now, of course, having endured the brunt of many jokes involving 'baptism' and large pools of water in my childhood, I assumed it was a joke. The smirk on my pastor-friend's face, however, told me otherwise. Instantly, the flesh inside me began to squirm. It's as if a switch were turned on in my mind - I began to rationalize every excuse not to go over to the water. My mind screamed at me that THIS WAS WRONG. Baptisms are to be done in church, right? Just who did my friend think he was, interrupting a good party to baptize someone? And then squirm number two occured. It was not only a 'someone', but two someones: my friends who were hosting the party! These were two upstanding, committed members of the church. They had been active church-going Christians for a long time. Why? What possessed them to do this now, on a RIVER of all places? Why not in a baptismal, in front of 'church people', like a 10 year old boy had done the night before (which, I was to discover later, was the motivation for my friends to finally make the decision in the first place)? Then I felt another feeling:
Shut up.
What?
SHUT UP!
"...and as they were going along the road they came to some water, and the
eunuch said, 'See, here is water! What prevents me from being baptized?' And he
commanded the chariot to stop, and they both went down into the water, Philip
and the eunuch, and he baptized him." Acts 8:36, 38
Yeah, that's from the Bible, not my head, just in case you were wondering...however, it did pop into my head as these objections were springing up in me. All of the tradition and bias and 'religious thinking' that was influencing me...it just melted away in the light of Truth. This is church - people gathering to celebrate the greatness of God. Not the singing and order of service and proclamation of the Word we call 'worship' (although those are all expressions of and fruit produced by worship), church is people sitting at the feet of God and soaking up His wonder - even if it is at the mouth of a river.